Little Break Up
by Paige Wagner
As a person living with diabetes, it is difficult to shake the underlying fear of being alone – hiking alone, traveling alone, or living alone. Sometimes this disease is beyond the control
of any one individual and support can make all the difference.
Relationships become familiar and comfortable over time. For the past eight years, I have shared my life with someone who came to know me intimately. He saw the best and worst parts of me, which included terrifying incidents of low blood sugars and illness. He saved my life with a juice box in the night too many times to count. These are heroic acts I only vaguely remember, but I am nonetheless very grateful for his bravery in times of panic.
I had been unhappy in my romantic relationship for a while, but in terms of diabetes care, he knew how to protect me and catch me when I inevitably fell. This kind of support feels rare, as it takes years to develop, but I recently realized that the seemingly safest decision for my diabetes management does not always align with the best choices for me as an independent adult.
The diabetes community constantly reminds me that diabetes doesn’t have to be the defining
characteristic of my life and it certainly shouldn’t be the driving reason to stay in a relationship.
Ending my relationship was the best thing I could do for my overall health. I feel energized and positive! While I may still be fearful at times, I refuse to let that fear hold me back from the life I want to live.
I am excited for whatever may come next – Healthy relationships are revitalizing! And learning about diabetes is just a small part of falling in love with me.